everything seems to be falling into place with my life and it feels wonderful. i love the city in which i live, i can finally say i love my body, and i am finding true friends here and having amazing experiences. i finally feel like i can be who i always was, but had to hide under a mask of not only gender but an entire identity that wasn't me for so many years.

here in san francisco i can be a beatnik hippie queer counterculture book nerd, and no one thinks twice about it. people actually like me for it- go figure?!?

a real less general update later when my eyes aren't half closed from exhaustion.



i hope everyone in lj land is as happy and peaceful as i am at this moment. it's a feeling i'm not used to- i'm sure many trans people aren't used to it, but it's such a nice thing to revel in when it finally happens.

happy birthday to raininglight7  ! i hope you had an awesome day, man.

hope everyone else is having an awesome week. last week i was totally in a funk but i'm totally getting it together this week. word.

right now i'm just chillin with mr_tommy_gunn  and his girlfriend petunia. we're watching alpha dog. rad movie.

happy birthday to adam_snake , who has been lookin' mighty fine these days too, by the way.

have the best birthday yet, adam!

this week has been cold in san francisco. i live in a basement which i call my "cave," and usually on sunny days i hate to sit and work inside, but all this week i have been enjoying retreating to the coziness of my cave.

i thought adjusting to the weather in san francisco would be more difficult, and i definitely thought i'd miss the heat more. i don't. i would like to be able to surf without a wetsuit, but i'll take living in SF over jacksonville anyday even if i have to surf with a wetsuit.

my birthday is next friday and i'm pretty stoked. i'm not sure what i'm doing, but i know i just want it laid back. i'm turning 25, so it's time to start my quarterlife crisis.

amazon wishlist

also, tonight i am thinking of going to the speculative frontier at the artists' television access.
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taco van!


chugging pamplemousse rose perrier instead of alcohol


getting to have long hippie hair and dress how i want


and of course, the weed. pictured here: northern lights



weed cocoa puff breakfast bars!


and of course, reading in the park on a sunny day

old lj friends, do not even waste your time reading this post- just dealing witha little internet drama. it won't make sense to you.l

so, a week or so agoanfjace posted an entry that was obviously about me, but didn't name me in it. i was a little pissed off because he completely misrepresented me and my ex-kristin. he goes on and on about how i am "obsessed with destroying his relationship," but that couldn't be further from the truth. me and k's favorite line had to be that we're both "actually a waste a space." actually.

he's mad because i told jackie he'd been flirting with kristin. basically, i got him in trouble. here is our exactly conversation for "proof."

i hate to even post dramatic shit like this, but i'm pretty sick of the shit i get, especially when i'm completely misrepresented (and he tells me he's not going to bash me, but does, publicly).

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*few minutes of inane bullshit*
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i deleted a bunch of friends- people who don't comment, don't have journals themselves, or people who just didn't seem interested. i'm tired of having to filter everything, so i cut people. it's really nothing personal at all if i cut you, even if i know you "in real life." i just feel odd sharing such private information with people who don't care, want to show it to other people, or who just want to read all about my life, but don't reciprocate with journal entries of their own.

comment if you feel you have been wrongly deleted and would like me to add you back.

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